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Saturday, September 30, 2006
-Children's day-
Wah...finally it's all over! I went from saturation to saturation. Did it for the whole week! Super exhausted and strain by all the walking. But was very happy and energised when inviting all the children. Guess the joy of the Lord is my strenght. I was quite worry abt my own group honestly but I keep on mediatating on the verse 'He who waters others will be watered himself', so I believe that God will take care of my group. On the actual day, some small things crop up like the bus drove off with two kids without me on the bus and some kids just couldnt come in the end. I tried all I can and honestly all I could tell myself is to trust that all things works together for good to those who love Him. I was a bit discourage but not like totally 'God, why like this?' that kind. I still wanna thank God for the two NCs that I had on the bus- Richard and Wesley. Oh ya... was very thankful that Grace came to serve too! Cos I really needed her help since Daryl cant serve and she made me totally realise that indeed one can make a great difference! Wah...seems to have learnt quite a bit but still havent think of the 50things that I had learnt from this children's day. It's the SWAT homework again. From lesson 1 till now I havent even do one. I really dunno how to email all the late homework to pastor. I just pray that she will show me grace when she saw my homework and hopefully she wont scold me. I will hand in all by this week, I promise! This is coming sunday have SWAT le. God, help me! :)
Oh ya...Forgot to promote 'First' album. It's the children's church album. All the songs super nice and worshipful. I love it and I want to buy it! I have save enough to buy it. God, I need blessings from heaven! ha...
-Here's it! Have a look!-
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
6:50:00 PM
Friday, September 29, 2006
-Rest & Relax-
-Bowling- -This is the bag- (Nice?)
(Look at our balls, so colorful!)
Oh...It's the last day of saturation! I meet up Yuping on fri after bringing some kids to church. Had a great time. Finally get to enjoy and reward myself after all the hard work. Meet her up at city hall and we shop as we walk. Lolx. We went to eat KFC and know what? I'm on veggie fast and I cant eat. lolx . But since my cousin wanted to eat so I just tag along. I ate fries and potato the whole day la. I love Potatoes but after this dunno if I will grow sick of it or not. ha... We went to bowling at Marina Square. Played 2 rounds with her and I win both rounds but I dun really care about the result cos I just feel like playing bowling after watching healing hands 3. lolx. Was fun! Wore the size 3 shoes actually was a bit too small la. But ok la still can fit. Then the ball... I only manage to find Size 8 de then just quite heavy. Oww... Come to think of it, like everything also dun fit hor but I still manage to play and enjoy myself! Praise God for a good time! Hee... Then we went shopping. Spent quite a lot since Mun Hon just return me the claims of $60. I went to TomatoCan and realise that the whole shopping centre is having a sale! Heard from my brother that it is a sale to attract costumers back after the IMF. So I bought a Bag and a top cos I bought a top last time but needed something inside if not very low cut! (Yuping bought one too cos she also got one low-cut top. Ha... It's always better to shop with someone cos can ask for opinions and somethings are cheaper when you buy two.)
Then after that we went to raffles city shopping centre. Bought some sweets from this party city shop. Wah... got a lot of different type of imported sweets. All so nice and unique, not very expensive so I bought some. Ha...Planning to buy some sweets from there during christmas! Can give to friends! Then we went to Acts Bookshop. The things there are quite nice but not very cheap so I bought a small notebook cos the comic charaters was quite unique, and some small cards to encourage those having exam. I feel so weird cos like allmost everyone are having exams then I am having my holidays. Weird rite? Then like everyone is so stress up with their exam. I got 3 relatives taking O's level this year. ha... So want to encourage them so that they wont be so stress. (and they wont pass the stress to me. lolx) So this is the day! I enjoyed it! God, thank you for all the blessings!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
7:12:00 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
-Poly Olympia-
Ohh...the Poly Olmypia are over. We did have a fun time and enjoyed ourselves. Though once again NP nv win. Ha... we got the third position. But it's ok la it's the sportsmanship that matter. Mei Qi really came and I'm gladful that God brought her. She didnt really play much but still manage to get to know some friends ba. Ha... also another step of me being able to meet her up since we seldom see each other. Know i'm going to have a super busy wk this week wont have much time for myself le but I planned to go bowling and swimming with my cousin on fri. Really hope that I will have the time to ba. Oh... I saw an addidas bag yesterday when I meet my cousin up after the Poly Olympia. Feel that my cousin really grown up cos nowadays she's more willing to sacrice and travel down. Ha... last time she always ask me go with her or acc her go home and she was like living in the north totally way out for me. Ha... We went to eat Mos Burger and shopping. Hmm... still wondering should I buy the bag. It's $45. Quite cheap and worth for money I think cos I saw another bag at minitoon, $16 but I feel that that bag only worth $10. So I'm still thinking. Wah...If I got a lot of money, surely I will waste a lot of money cos I won't think so much and will just buy anything that I like. Lolx. God, I still love you and I will grow to love you evener more everyday!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
6:12:00 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
-Yet another day-
Ha...today cgm was quite good cos manage to do some letter writing and share my testimony. Ever since I'm in this cg, I nv relly share any testimony. Also dunno why. But still I thank God for all that He has done in my life. Have better understand of my cgl about the blur blur part. So now I have more grace towards her I think. Oh ya... then i finally shared with someone about LT. I shared with yizhen then she also share with me about her O's level anxiety. Ha... I been through that so I'm very sure that God will bring her through too! Oh ya... Mei Qi is going for svc and the Poly Oplympia with me tml! I pray that we will have a great time and that she will be touch by the love of God once again! Let it not be only a one time tranformation but a process of loving God! At first very not excited about the event then was still thinking of way not to go then in the end I ended up cannot go for the cch briefing and very exited for the outreach. Lolx... Indeed, a friend make a great different. But now all that I can do I had already done so I leave everything else to God. God, know that u will do the rest. Was quite fared up with my cg members cos I also nd to waste a lot of time and effort in order to get wat I want from them. Worse when in the end no one reply. I wonder they care? Cos in my last cg, I know no one ever or seldom dun reply sms de lo. So I have to chase until crazy and in the end they still dun give me thier timetable. hai*** Quite fared up at times and make me dun feel that doing anything for the cg anymore. But still... I think that's abt all. Oh ya... I wanna go bowling! Looking for ppl to go with me but nx wk will be quite busy with all visitation and saturation and all. I realise whenever I got plan for things then I will already be super busy!!! Why like tt! lolx... God, I love you! I look to you! You see me through the season! This is true cos I experience a lot of times le. Oh ya... I'm gonna burn my letter to God again. Lolx. Think I will be able to collect them when I go to heaven some day? Lolx.
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
12:23:00 AM
Friday, September 22, 2006
-Reality VS illusion-
Just finish watching healing hands3. Every time I finish watching a show, I will alway wonder why I wasted the time to watch something that is not true and evetually it will have a ending? I enjoy watching the show...maybe I enjoy illusion but will it's time to face up reality again, I will wonder why life cannot be like a show where you will never know if the ending is good or bad. Today, my cgl called again...Dunno why she called but everytime I had her miss call, I will dislike it and I will shut down my hp. Why? Is there anything to hide or is it becos I simply dun want any contact with her or to the world? When you dun have sometime u will ask for it but whenyou have it finally you will wish that you nv had it. Just like a HP, dunno it is becos as I grow, sometime I will deliberately ignore or leave my HP alone cos I dun wan to know if any body call mi. Now as I write, I realise becos in the past I am always so excited when ppl sms or call me becos I will always wish for my seniors or my friends and even cg members to sms and call me... I enjoyed all the attention and company in the past becos it's all abt Fun and being together. But now I have no more need of a HP becos there will not be anyone that will call or sms me a forward msg or ask me out for meals or anything fun... Now it's all abt Soul winning, cg matters, cch attd...everyone seems to call me for a purpose, a commitment, a responsibility, or worse to call me in order to find out how's mmy walk with God. Is there nothing else? Nothing sinerce? Nothing about calling up and concern? I wonder... how my lifehad become like this ever since LT broke the friendship b/w me and her...worse still ever since W194 multiply... I seems to be lost in a place where I know no one and no one really know me at all. I asked myself times and times again...why is all this things happening? Sometimes I;m really very tired... I wanna give up... give up on everything... How come christainty can become so dull and pressurising? Where are all the joy? Whenever I feel tired I will wanna give up on everything... But I know if I do, in the end I will still have to pick myself up again and start all over again... I dun want to start all oevr again. But how can I mve on? What should I do to make things better? I should just take the chance to leave this place for a while in order to find back myself and to really consider how to move on. God, I know tt you are always there and I nv want to leave you. But teach me how to live a life filled with happiness? I need ppl in my life! I need friends who can help me. I need someone whom I can open to... WHo? will I ever find one? Is there anyone out there that is the right one for me from God? I really dunno... Holidays always make me htink a lot becos I always feel this is when ppl just started to give me everything becos I'm free...but is there anyone out there tt will know how I feel? No one ever ask me of my opinion...they just go on doing the same old things...everything become so routine without any human touch. Have everyone I know become robort? Or is it becos everyone are just to simply occupy by thier own life to stop and care for a friend? Most of the ppl I know, they only care for thier partner... but maybe everything just comes down to me... Is it becos I nv share? Anyone cares? ... ... ... ... ... ...
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
4:15:00 AM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
-Life-
What is life? As I begin to watch the show 'Healing Hands 3', I realise that life contained lots of lessons for us to learn. Everyone is trying and learning to live life better. Sometimes I really dunno what I want in life... God, I know u must be thinking why are we so hard to please? I dislike making decision but sometimes I wonder why cant I make my own decision? Soul winning? Of cos it's a good thing and of cos I want my friends to be saved but why must ppl always gove me pressure on this topic? Being the fisher of men last year? And here I am thinking of why? I tried and tried... Even in children's church I encourage the children to bring in thier friends... Soul winning begin even when they are in Preschool... God, I know you loves ppl and so do I.
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
1:10:00 AM
Sunday, September 17, 2006
-Blisters!!!-
Arghh...Still have so many blisters on my hands! Can't stand them but they are still there. Sometimes they itch and they feel so weird especially when we need to hold hands and pray with one another I so scare that people will feel them. Put so much lotion still no use! Determine to go and see another doctor tomorrow morning. Can see from the pictures that they are getting worse. Can't imagine when they all combine together! God save me! When for service today, was super late cos I took double the usual time to bathe myself. If you know me, I dun bathe very fast so when it had to double the time so it very long cos I need to bathe myself with plastic bags covering my hands. Dun wan my hands to touch any soap. Then after that went to look for my mum at the market to get money and I thanks God for leading me to my mum cos my market is not small and my mum really know how to run about in the market. lolx. That's why super late for svc worse when I thought that my members are sitting near the choir side but actually they told me it's musicians side. Oh ya... I realised something, my memory seems to be getting worse cos I kept on forgetting where I left my things. What can I do to have better memory? Then after service fellowship for a while then everyone went home. During cgm we learnt abt 'communication' and I realise that the 5th level of communication-Openness and Honesty, this I can only do it with God. I guess Father only you alone know all things about me. God, I just pray for just one who can be my best friend, a person whom I can shared my everything to and who will be able to give me sound advices. Another person I pray for is also just one who can be my life time partner, someone who can lead me on and of course someone whom I can share intimacy and walk with me through the rest of my life. Hmm... God, when will this two precious person appear in my life? That's my deepest prayer. Heavenly Father, I trust in You! I walk by faith! Each step by faith! To live by faith! I put my trust in you! No weapons form against me shall prosper! If my God is for me, then who can be against me!? Cloths me in Your presence Lord, draw me near to you! I love you, Daddy!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
3:25:00 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
-Days after days-
Days just passed after days...Just like time wait for no one. Was at home the whole wk except for mon where I went to Marine Parade with my mum. The purpose of the trip is to develop photos. Was like thousand years since I develop photos and this time is like digital printing so I was like how to use this machine but once again i can always handle machine well. Ha... So I manage to develop 30 photos for $7.50. So happy...so I went home to like rearrange all my photos in my album. Oh ya... last fri, I packed my room and I'm so satisfy with it cos it's like sprinkling clean and neat. I always enjoy the feeling of neatness. lolx. Neatness and Laziness surely cannot co-exist.
Then throughout the wk I spent my time watching this show 'Forensic Heroes' of cos it's a Hong Kong drama series again! I think if I live in Hong Kong I can spent all my time watching Drama series! Sadly, this few days i realised that my hands and foot are filled with small blisters. Dunno it is Hand, Foot, Mouth Disease or not but went to the doctor then he said maybe due to some soap allergy but I still think there's more to it.
Maybe becos the doctor didnt have the time to really examine me cos he was like in a rush to close the clinic. Should I go and see him again? God, what should I do?
(Not sure if you can see the blisters or not but I tried.)
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:41:00 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
-Decisions-
Finally reached home...Ha...Was super tired.Went to NorthPoint and ate brunch with Jaslynn and Yuping. Then we went shopping. Spent $7 on this adidas water bottle. Was like hesitating whether to buy or not. Then realise that I had bee using the Voda Voda bottle so I decided to spent the money on it. Lolx... Water always taste nicer in a new water bottle and I tend to drink more water with a new one. Dunno wat kind of theory is tt but it always work. Like when I need to study, I will go and get some new pens to motivate myself. Ha... Also borrowed the OTO from Yuping...Like took thousand years to borrow form her la. But still happy cos now I can keep fit and prepare myself for PFT when the semester starts. Now I need to deicide to go for the seventeen birthday bash at Zouk with my friends or not... Already told my cgl that I'm not going for a poly prayer meetin cos meeting friends then now I dunno should I go or not cos was like just reach home then wanna spend the night with my family. Haiyo...why must we always make decisions? Oh ya... on the way back was like sharing with Jaslynn wat happen between mi n ting then I realise lke nothing much but just dunno why we dun talk anymore. Ha...Need to study Psychology to find out why...I always find that human inner lives are so amazing and I want to understand and learn abt it. That's why I am interested in Psychology. I just pray that God will help me through it and pray that it's in God's will.
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
4:51:00 PM
-A day passed without knowing how-
Ha... Did nothing much today...I dislike myself doing nothing for the whole day. I cant live a day without achieving much if not I will be very angry with myself. Cos today supposingly must go for a swim but it's like raining so nv go. Stayed over at my cousin's house and all we do the whole day is to pack the room and face our own laptops! Lolx... Nowadays, people rather face a metal thing then a real human. What is the world becoming like?!? 
Oh ya... bought two comb cos can't find any of my combs!!! I got like 2-3combs and I can't even find one so I decided to go and buy another 2! Ha...If I found all, I think I will have abundance of combs ar... So go and do a survey and find out how many combs does any average girl will lose! Lolx. Played Sims and my Sims just got a twins! Ha...first time. Hmmm... Spent quite some time trying to edit my blog to make it nicer but quite hard. Only manage to add some pictures. I haven't do my project work ar... Later all my friends gonna scold meliao...better start doing. So happy cos I got a numbers of worship songs that we sang recently. Ha... Now I got plenty to go around for QT. God, I pray that my CCH leader will transfer the fund for me by morning so that I won't go broke. Amen! I need a bag and new shoes not want. Cos I really need. God, I pray that I can be closer to you every single day! I love You!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
2:03:00 AM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
-Friends-
Today, reach church at 9.55am...super late cos slept at 3plus so was super tried. Cant get out of bed. Sermon was abt how parent affect us when we are young and how we are shape from our childhood experience. I can relay to the part of not being much able to express my feelings. I always hide my feelings and seldom show out my emotion. But I know when I become a parent I will be super lovey dovey kind. As for now, I can only pray that God will help mi to be more comfortable with my friends and be able to share. Maybe I have been deeply hurt by my best friend last time so it's kinda of create a wall around me and I find it quite hard to find aother true friend. God, I need true and close friends whom I can ralate to and be able to share. Someone that can help mi spiritually and of course I need a spouse whom I can share my everything to. God, now I can only share them all with you. I know I might be a victim of early exposure and I pray that Your power will be able to deliver me form it. There's some area where God only You can heal. I bring them all to You! Help me God!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
10:49:00 PM
-First-
Ha...Starting a better blog here. Cos the MSN blog is too user-friendly until very boring. lolx. Will I be sue for saying this. Ha...Anyway, I really wanna thank God for His Goodness n Grace in my life! He is really a Amazing God! I wanna thank Him for a new laptop which I truly enjoy it. Next I'm super happy & relax when I realise tt there's no SWAT class tml! (Know I'm very bad cos I havent do the assignment which I nd to email to Pst. Really taking grace for granted... Tan Gek Ling, better wake up!) Enjoyed and truly fellowship with my members today thought there are like only the six of us but I think it's a good start! We play some lame games & got to know one another better at StarBucks. Ha...Used the vouchers which we won last time at the sentosa outreach so kinda of got free drinks. Should have more of this kind of fellowship.
Had fun too at SettlerCafe! Nv fail to make mi relax & enjoy! Keep up the good work! Oh ya... my kid- Samuel from cch got into the final for bible trivia! Was happy tt WeiWei came for cch today! Thank God for all sufficency!
Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
12:17:00 AM
Today, reach church at 9.55am...super late cos slept at 3plus so was super tried. Cant get out of bed. Sermon was abt how parent affect us when we are young and how we are shape from our childhood experience. I can relay to the part of not being much able to express my feelings. I always hide my feelings and seldom show out my emotion. But I know when I become a parent I will be super lovey dovey kind. As for now, I can only pray that God will help mi to be more comfortable with my friends and be able to share. Maybe I have been deeply hurt by my best friend last time so it's kinda of create a wall around me and I find it quite hard to find aother true friend. God, I need true and close friends whom I can ralate to and be able to share. Someone that can help mi spiritually and of course I need a spouse whom I can share my everything to. God, now I can only share them all with you. I know I might be a victim of early exposure and I pray that Your power will be able to deliver me form it. There's some area where God only You can heal. I bring them all to You! Help me God! 
