Monday, October 30, 2006

-Projects killing mi-

Arghh...projects are all runing after mi! lolx. There's so much to do and so little time. Dunno wat all the lecturers thinking. They trying to kill us indrectly. lolx. Anyway, spent almost a day by just doing projects alone in Suntec except tt I went to service in the morning la. Suppose to go for prayer meeting and I'm quite determine to go de but still can bear to not go for project meetings cos there's so many conflicts and stuff, furthermore there's a lot to do but in the end, I still glad that I went for the projects meeting cos we had a great time laughing and taking photos with my laptop camera. Ha... I think those ppl in mac must be thinking are we crazy keep on posing in front of the laptop and laughing away. I nv know it's tt fun. So nx time when we are too stress doing project cos use the camera as a form of relaxation la. hee... Oh... we decided to somehow build an imagination childcare centre in Suntec Sky Garden. Going there brings back some memories of playing games with my ex cg members. Those days was so fun and carefree cos I was still a young believer then. Hmm... things changed and time passed... oK... then I missed the PAYM concert la. My bro was like saying the not a lot of people were Q-ing for the concert. Hmm... nv mind, shall not think abt tt anymore. So we went down the MYCA centre again this morning and guess wat happened in the end when we spoke to Sukuna in sch? After a few attempt of trying to help us, we all decided tt it's not going to work and we all abondon tt idea! So sad... but again I say, I'm this type of person tt look dunno how many steps ahead de. So I once again will somehow convince myself tt the project will be done in the end no matter wat. So there's no worry. Just nd to have hard work, change another topic and chiong ar! lolx. Just pray tt God will bring mi through all this and tt we can get a really good result for this semester! Jiayou X3! :)

Here's a few of the pics we took:

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10:03:00 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

-Pst-

Hmm... Pst Eileen nv fails to amazed mi and impact my life with her words! Today after CCH went for SWAT at night. I love it when it is on sat night cos I feel tt the members in SWAT is getting smaller as in the number and the relationships are getting better ba. Cos we always talk, fellowship and stuff. It feel so much like a mini cg! Ha... I might be even closer to them then some of my cg members. Ha... but maybe becos we all share the same purpose in the same ministry so we tend to got a lot of things to talk abt! Of cos it's abt children la. lolx. Pst taught abt confidence and not having the fear of failures today. I always feel so wow wow wow during the class cos pst realli give a lots of revelations. She is not fierce and she reali feels like a friend. Just like wat lixia said last time, Pst realli bring everyone up to heaven! Lolx. Nx time I must record down wat pst said if not I always forget after tt class even though there's notes. Ha... OH... I forgot to bring my bible today la. Thank God tt Pst didnt scold. Then I saw so many ppl today la. Like Wen Shan, Jennifer and Boon Tah again ( I kept on bumping into this couple, dunno why.) and finally saw Jasline and her BF too. ha... Finally got my FIRST album from mum hon le but I sound as if I deserve the gift. hmmm... not good not good. Must learn to appreciate others and not take things for granted. Felt tt I always receive from my leader so learnt to give too! Ok...when I start to work, or when it's christmas or when I go for the Thailand trip then I must remember Mun Hon and Hui Jun. So excited for the Thailand trip though it's not finalize where yet but surely we are going somewhere after our graduation! Wah... come to think of it, like so fast wanna graduation already. Looking forward but dunno how's working life might be. I got one problem, should I go for prayer meeting tml? I wanna go but got project meeting then after so many talks and conflicts with Rinna, i really dun wan any more troubles la. How? Wat can I do? Finally, the bottom line of wat pst said: To know and realise tt at the end of the day, everything is ok between mi and my maker-God! Oh ya... saw pst Kong carrying baby Dayan today. So fatherly. lolx. Dayan is like sleeping then everyone so quiet! lolx. wah... He's like a little prince!

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12:08:00 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

-WeiRd lecturer-

Hai* today the lecture really made everyone hate her la! From the beginning of the class, she want everyone to be on time for her class then late a bit also cannot. tt one I understand la but after tt she go on further by demanding everyone to work with different ppl for a discussion! Worse still she treat us like little kids by numbering us! She really hor... when everyone started to discuss, guss wat! she even count the number of ppl in a group and caught ppl who are try to be in the same group as their friends! she really bo liao and got nothing to do! want everyone to listen to her when she's so mean, rude and crazy! In the end, she even scold a group of student cos they talk. I mean talk also cannot meh...somemore she scold de is Ira! She's such a good and nice student how can she scold her? Tt lecturer is really really... Cannot stand her le la. Ppl who know mi will know tt I seldom hate ppl de then now she really making mi cannot stand her la! Oh no... I cant imagine the rest of the lecture with her le! Should have video down everything and let Peggy see. Cos even though they complain to Peggy but I feel tt she will really see what happen if there's a video clip la. Cos normally lecturer knows lecturer then they cannot imagine how bad can a lecturer be! Hai* Really hope tt Peggy will do something abt it! If not everyone will really list tt lecturer as the top of the most hated lecturer list la! She better apolosie!

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9:04:00 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

-8827-

Woah! God is truly amazing again! My mum win lottery todya again and this time it's $500! It's like this time it's the second time winning in 10days la. I really was amazed and I know tt it must be becos my mum truly participated in the builing fund even though I know tt God dislike gambling but God is a creative God! No one can limit Him but of cos he doesnt want us to get into debt by gambling. So I'm of cos happy for my mum cos recently the family financial statement was quite bad so was praying tt God will bless the family. Hee... Oh...went for visiting today and I'm thankful for God in placing Grace into my life cos she is a great help and I know tt she love God a lot. I pray tt God will help her even as she serve. Cos she has her own problem like family and growth spiritually. But I know tt she can do it! Ha... oh ya... Shedrove mi home again today! So happy dun have to take train home. Hee... shall just tok abt all the happy stuff today. I feel like a walking angel today cos was like praying from house to house for all my kids tt they will do well for thier exams tomorrow and nx wk. So indeed all the effort was paid off when all my kids agreed to come this sat and they all can go for the morning svc. Surpraisingly non of them complain of not being able to go cos of exam. Wow! Praise the LORD! Ha... God is truly greatly to be praised!

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3:54:00 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

-Holloween Carnival-

Ooh...it's a day of so called holloween. The carnival was not bad la with all the nice foods and games and the place is nice too. Just tt didnt really have much of a mood cos it's suppose to be a holiday ma. But I still thank God tt I did my part there as a counsellor and Hilda got saved! Rejoice! Ha... Ya... talk with jh,dap,sl and rinna yesterday from 12plus till 3am! Wah... we finally settle things with rinna and I pray tt she will really change, I guess tt's the most we can do as friends. If u dun wan to help urself no one can help u. So everything was kinda of settle with all the craps tt we tok also. lolx. But I really enjoy the conversation cos it's like we are all really friends! Yeah! We will be planning for a grad vacation after our so- called graduation during feb before chinese new year I hoped! Ha... we can all go and realx, shop till we drop and just enjoyed each other company and then come back for a good chinese new year celebration before we really embark on our career journey! Ha... was kinds of looking forward to it was on second thoughts, I better treasure the school days now. lolx. Everything seemed to move so fast. In just a few months time, I will be working liao! Time really wait for no man! Ohh... fell sick again I guess cos was like having flu. Hai* Nowadays, I always feel tt I'm going to fall sick leh. Must be the haze fault again. lolx. ok ba... that's abt it! God, I continue to pray tt indeed u will provide seeds to the sower! Amen!

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10:44:00 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

Project with the capital 'P'!

Went to sch today as usual for lesson. It's IEP again. I'm going crazy with this word! Hmmm... Everything seemed to be so intense and the lecturer make it worse by having a mock IEP. In two wks time must finish up everything to get ready for the mock up which includes all the literature review so tt we can do up the ppt for the parents' workshop, all materials for all activites, two learning corners, it's like everything la! How can it be? I'm like cannot imagine it la but I know everything will surely come to pass de so I didnt worry much la. I also dunno why butg I'm this kind of person tt will always look ahead so everything to me is like surely will be over whether u like it or not. The different is whether u got put in the effort to pass or to fail la. So I can already see 2007 and 2008 le la. Hmmm... Is this good or bad I wonder. Anyway, we still continue to ponder the topic on Rinna which I seriously think tt we should get it over and done with! Talk abt it with Lishi today since we saw her in school. I just pray tt everything will turn out fine and good ba. Oh... I wanted to buy 6 files form popular yesterday de but no money le so nv buy... hmmm... I should go and get them after the Holloween Carnival at Heart of God church. So far not much confirm friends but at least Mei Qi rededicated her life on sun so she will be going for the carnival too! I really pray tt this time she will hold on to God and will not give up God for anything else. Went to Whampoa yesterday for market research, it was really a difficult place to find but I love the house tt we saw! It's so peaceful and quiet living tt and the environment was nice with a playground beside the house! Wow... I love it! Nx time I must also find such a house for my family! Ha...

Here's the pics we took there:

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12:12:00 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

-In Awe-

Yeah! My dad actually went for an dailect church outing! Amazing! God is really Great and really to be praise! I wan to declare the verse: As for me and my house, we gonna serve the LORD! Amen! Ha... My mum was like bought one extra tix for gugu to go for the outing de but in the end she back out. I also dunno why i's not the first time. So my mum was like aiya... bought an extra tix, wasted la. But to everyone's amazed, my mum was like try try la...so she went to ask my dad along and he just simply agreed! My mum was super happy and she even said tt it's God who lead her. Hmmm... I guess overall they enjoyed themselves and I'm like starting to see the 'retired' parents. lolx. Oh well, I actually forgot tt it's a public holiday today and my dad dun have to work. It's my greatest blessing to have my whole family in church! Ha.. I can begin to see light for my brother's baptism. lolx. Then after everythinG i went to Interchange and shop with my mum. Had a great time as usual cos can buy things ma. Like restock up things! lolx. Then I bought this seventeen magazine and I saw my friend, ms zheng shuling's letter publish on it. And I was like, it's you again! She actually won herself a $73 Swatch watch by simply writing a letter. So far, I counted and she won like countless of items le hor... Ha... Happy for her la. But really amazed once again by how God is always blessing her in this matter. lolx. I told BL abt the dialect church thing and she seems to appear indifferent and I was like hai, she dunno how to share my joy de, only know how to wrongly scold mi. Well, I know I shouldnt think tt way but tt's how I feel at least for now. I rather share my joy with Lixia and I know she will have a different kind of response compare to her. Then dun blame mi for not sharing the joys with you since tt's the response I get. Well, it's just human. No one like to share joys or troubles with those tt will not give any response. God, I pray for more grace over my life and for mi to have grace over her. God, strenght mi in grace. Oh ya... SWAT was suddenly cancel becos Pst was sick. I pray tt God will heal her in Jesus' name! Amen. Well, I also pray tt there will be no SWAT tml cos I dun wan things to crash. Cos I am suppose to meet my friends for project and Aishah should be driving. Ha... Everyone can make it so I cant back out last mins. So God, I pray for everything to run out smoothly and tt Meiqi and Daphne will come for service before the service starts and tt they will be saved in Jesus' name! Amen! :)

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10:56:00 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

-Happenings-

Hmmm...how should I start? Ok... I thank God for last sunday cos I was very happy for blessings! Last sunday was the paid day for my family cos the whole wk we had been waiting for tt day. Was quite broke the whole wk even y mum dun wan to go to the market cos no money. But I thank God tt we finally had some money on sun! Oh... Then at night, my mum and I went to Econ Minimart and to our surprised! I saw the number 8287 on the newspaper! It was my house phone number and my mum did won! Another extra $250 for this month! Ha... Then at night when I was chatting with Jia Hui then I realised tt she dun wan her tuition anymore so she agreed to give it to me. Though I was not sure on how to handle but I was trilled by God's provision! Cos I remember that pst said tt God will provide seed for the sower! Yeah! Now I dun have to worry too much for the building Fund...I really wan to give but I realise that my bank account is like $0! And nowadays, my money will be spent out before the wkend! I really hate it when I dun have enough on Sunday! But I dun really spend a lot leh...only on food which I nd to? Hmmm... $50 a wk enough? I dunno... just pray for more tuitions so tt I can earn some money. Hee... Oh, so school wk was fun I guess cos at least I can laugh around in sch with my friends rather than staying at hm doing nothing. But I realise that I was super tired after everday sch day! Think I slack a lot during holidays ba. Come to think of it, wat and how can I do something abt my PFT?lolx. I dun care ba... Got lots of projects coming up again! And I have AST and EOP this semester! Arrgh... I dun like speech and presentation! I just cant get the hand of Phonics! Hmmm... Deciding to go and find some materials to help mi out.
Oh... Rinna again. The same old problem IEP happened again and we are yet to solve it. Really hard to tackle.

Everytime I go for cgm or svc I will feel the same- not being able to do the things that I wan to because I'm with the different gp of ppl now! God, wat can I do? I dun wan to go for blood donation because I'm scared or becos somebody ask mi to? I love to save lives! Surely I wan to donation! Hai* God, help mi again!

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11:39:00 AM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

-Goong-

It's another of watching Goong. I'm goinging to finish the whole series le efore school starts again nx wk. It's goinging to be my last semster in NP. Thinking back, I had wonderful friendship and those tt are in the same line as me, having the same passion ba... Times really flew... It's was like yesterday since I was starting to get use to a new environment. I remembered having a hard time making friends and having click. I just go with the flow of others and almost lost myself. I really thank God for LiShi! Now it's the last time tt we are all going to study together. After this, I really dunno what and where will everyone be going and doing. Really must treasure this time together, learning, playing, doing project, eating... Sharing all the joys and sorrow together. We quarrel, learnt and unlearnt the our wrong habit and a lot more. Wah... I never regret being in this course and choosing a Poly path! I think I will die of stress if I'm in a JC. ooking at all those members in my cg studying in JC really me make freak out. I really wonder what my life would be if I'm not in CHC. I knew if I didnt know God, my life would be filled with uncertainty and I will be just spending times away..without any purpose. Hmm... I guess the only time I cried alone outside is the times when I really misses my prvious cg ba. I really use trying to get use to a new cg. Many of the things I used to love, to do, I no longer do them now. Like going for prayer meeting, Overnight prayer meeting and a lots more. God, you know that I love doing them and I want to do them, but for now, I really dunno why my greatest hinderance seemed to be my cgl. Should I change cg? Times and times again I told myself that it's me and not the cg. If I change a cg, I might encounter the same problem again. I really dun want to start all over again but I also dun wan to stop the things that I love to do just becos of one person. I will go for prayer meeting if there's more members going cos I dun wan to pray with my cgl. God, what am I suppose to do. I kept on avoiding and I know that I am not building a goo image anymore. Maybe my cgl no longer trust me, no longer pin any hope in me, she must be thinking what am I going through that I always missed her calls. If it was Lixia, I will immediately call back. I guess it's a matter of respect and godly fear for cgl ba. Current I dun have tt for my cgl. Maybe becos there's too much times when she misunderstood me for certain things and I dun bother to explain, times when I think that she's just too blur, too demanding, too pushy? Maybe everyone have a place where no one can attend and she's invading into my private ground. That's why I feel uneasy whenever I see her, talk to her. Sometimes, when someone just doesn't like it, he/she will avoid it. It's just human. What can I do? Surely this cant goes on and on becos I dun wan to feel the guilt of not doing things that I should do. School is going to starts and I really hope that by then I will be real busy that I will have excuse for a lot of things. Maybe she's just simply cares for all the members. I want the cares but it's seemed that it's not progressing gradually. It's contradicting. Wanting the cares but yet not willing to open up. Maybe she's just not the right person ba. God, I really no longer know what I can do le. I tried and tried... but things just doesnt seem to be getting better. I feel like I'm suffocating in the cg! God, help me! Anyone read this might feel that it's scary that I'm writing this. Think I'm too good at acting that no one really know. But I just want to be me for once!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
12:30:00 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

-Wondering-

Hmm...Today I was sitting on the bus on the way home. It was a usual long ride as I took 66 all the way home from Buikit Timah Rd. I always enjoy long bus ride and I dislikes changing of transportation. On the ride, there is always a lot of thoughts coming up to my mind. Thinking of everything and anythiny that had happened and yet to come. Dunno why... maybe becos of age ba. Now that I am 19, I havent even got attach before. SHould I consider it a blessing? I wonder when will I meet my prince charming... will he be the one that will be my life partner? my first love? (other than God) Will I get married? Without a vision, people perish. I have dream and vision abt my future. Even planned. But I cannot do anythin without God's plan. Well, ha... maybe it's the show I'm watching now that is affecting me ba. The shows that I watch always has an impact on me. Like now it's Goong and those who watched will know it's a love story. Ha... I always wish that one day, when I am sick (not serious illness k? cos I dun wan to glorify the devil. just wanna make use of the devil. Lolx) my boyfriend will be there to take care of me. Tis seems to be common in show where the female will be sick while the male will take good care of her and their relationship blossom! Ha... fairytale? Well, at least it's something I wish for? Maybe I really yearn for the love ba. I dun understand why I dun attract any good guy? God, when will you give me my prince charming? I remember I once heard this: If you want to attract guys that are spiritual to be your boyfriend then you must first be spiritual. Am I lacking in something? spiritually? appearance? soul? I really dunno... I just nd someone who can lead and guide me in all the diff areas and someone who will take the first step. Ha... Cos I dun dare to. 21st century? lolx. I'm still tt type of girl. Has anyone love/like me before? Hmm... I can said Yes. but they are not those guy tt I like. Honestly, I wont play ard with love ba. I feel that it's a very serious and important part of my life.

-I am just an ordinary girl who nds to be love by someone sent by God!-

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11:23:00 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

-Fullmoon-

Oh... It's lantern festival! Oh no... it's Mid-Autumn festival! We had our cgm and celebrated it at the condo. Hmm... Not really fun though can we only played with sprinkles and eat some mooncake. I prefer celebrating with my realtives and my parents cos it's thier wedding annivesary! Was quite bad not being able to celebrate with them. There's a lot of things that I wanted to do when I START earning money. I wan to renovate the house (the kitchen and electric sockets), bring my parents for holidays to HongKong, sponsor a child from world vision, go for mission and much more! Hmmm...seemed like everything nd money ar. lolx. But I know tt I can do it!
Ok...here's are some of the pictures taken on this fullmoon day:

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11:56:00 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

-Busy?-

Wuah...My CCH leader gonna buy me the Children's church 'First' Album. Ha...So happy cos I wanna buy it but dun have extra cash for it. I'm so blessed! Cos in June, Faith bought Sun's album for me then now it's the 'First' album. Come to think of it, I havent buy any album for quite some time le. But really thank God for all the blessings. He is what I want and when to give it to me. hA... sO Happy! I went to Wesley Childcare Centre today with my friends to show another proposal. The supervisor was very friendly and helpful by asking some difficult questions. It's good for us at least it makes us think more. Then I went to Chinatown since I need to change bus from there. Bought Chestnut for my mum cos she likes it from there and bought another pair of shoes for myself! It's $9.90. Cheap and nice. Wanted to buy this pair of shoes for quite some time le but everytime go there also dun have my size so ended up not buying. Ha... then I just walked pass and saw my size so I just went in and ask the salegirl for a new pair and just paid without trying. Came home to edit my survey then wore tt pair of shoes out to meet Jiahui and pass her the survey. Then just in time for visitation! Went visiting with Grace and talk quite a bit on the car. Must pray for her work... hmmm... cos last wk I just ask her how's her work then things start to happen. It's another guidance from the Holy Spirit... Oh ya... I realise that my kids-Fabian and Weiwei really need help for thier schoolwork. I want to give them tuition but dunno how to voice out. Maybe when school start then I just volunteer to help them ba. As for now, I just give them little assignment on sat ba. God, help me and give me ways to help them. I know that all children can study, they just needed some patience and guidance. :)

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4:23:00 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

-Swimming!-

Yea! Went swimming today! So happy...manage to took some pictures. I always enjoyed swimming and I enjoyed it even more when the place is renovated! So nice and clean and most of all the toilet are clean too! So I meet my cousin up after going to simen childcare centre to meet the supervisor for meeting. Then went to Bugis with my Poly friends for shopping. Didnt buy much things though I saw cheap tops n bottoms at 'Industries'. I wanna buy but yesterday buy a lot of things le so dun wan to spend. Maybe later in the week or something ba. Then meet my cousin cos she wan me to acc her to update her passport photo cos tt time went Malaysia with her then the Malaysia custom almost dun allow her in! She's going to Perth this November after her O's level. Ha... I never thought of that when I finish mY O's level leh... Sometimes, I really envy her cos her sister and dad doted so much on her and they always give her money to spend as in go oversea and stuff. Hmm... I shall earn mine when I start working. Oh... My cgl asked me to pray abt going to SOT nx year but I dunno if it's the right time. I still can't decide yet. Wanted to work first cos nd the financial for it ma. And I'm sure that after started working I will still want to go SOT de. I wont cos of work then dun wan to go de. Daddy God, can you give me an answer for this? SHould I? Should I not? When? I didnt go Prayer meeting for the Poly student today. Didnt feel like going then wan to meet my cousin. Hee... Nx wk is my last wk of holidays le must spend it to the fullest! I want to go Gyms nx wk! Hmmm... God, I know you are Great and Greatly to be praise! Come and help me with the decision, ok?

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
9:56:00 PM

Monday, October 02, 2006

-Shopping Spee-

Woah... I went out with my mum to Chinatown today! Was actually not ery excited about going cos everytime so there until sian liao. So didnt expect to buy anything. My mum enjoys going there for the Laska chicken at the market there. Nice I admit but very troublesome to travel all the way there to eat. And it's like $3 for one small bowl plus the travelling fare so quite expensive la. Ha... But very happy cos I bought a number of things today! Too bad for my brother cos he nv go. After eating we went walking then walk pass everbest shoes shop. As everyone know shoes from this shop is quite expensive but I manage to get a pair for just $19.90! I wanted to buy another one cos that one is comfortable but my mum said the other one is more elegant and I felt so too so I want both! But I didnt ask for both la cos I also dun wan my mum to spend so much. Those who know me and my mum will know that if I ask my mum for something she will be willing to buy for me after some pursuasion. Ha... I also dunno why...maybe I have the power. Lolx. Cos my brother dun have the patient to ask for it. Oh...then we walk on and I also bought some paper lantern for fri CGM cum Lantern Festival. Ha...then we went to buy some 'festival cakes' and went to CK. I bought 3 tops from there. Ha...cos saw some sale then 3 for $10! Cheap and nice! Ha... I always enjoy the feeling of buying nice and cheap clothes. Those that look expensive but cheap. Didnt wanted 3 de but since 3 for $10 then why not. Ha... Then we went to OG and shop for gift cos my mum want to buy a baby gift set for church leader so I went to choose for her. My mum very funny de. The same set of baby gift is found in OG and CK but she said OG one look better. Then I bought another 3 set of bras. ha...young hearts again but this time is more plain la. cos more convience to wear plain one if not must consider wat clothes to wear so ma fan. ohh... that's abt all that I buy today. A lot rite? Big harvest today. Ha... Went to the traditional dessert shop to eat dessert too! Think I enjoyed my day! My leader ask me to go visit shihui but I dunno what to do so I just got her some sweets n card and prayed for her. Think I will be very happy if someone will to do tt for me too. very sweet! Yesterday, had one free meal cos the lunch at

got some free tables so our cg joined in and we ate the buffet but not very nice de. Just to go in and add on to the number and build atmosphere I hope. Got lots of those chinese riddles to guess, manage to get some answers. Overall, I wanna to thank My Great Big Daddy God for all the blessings that I had receive so far! I love you, Daddy God!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
10:22:00 PM