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Thursday, November 30, 2006

-Happie Day-

Here's some of the photos we took today! -SmileZ-



Yeah! So happy today! Finally get to go eat the 99cents sushi le! It's cheap and nice! We ate till bloated and we onli nd to pay $13 each. I like the uniqueness of the place, the basket, the 'ice cream stick' and the mango dessert! Yummy! We trick Dap abt her present and celebration. lolx. Oh ya... After tt we went to popular to get some stuff for IEP and I saw this cute soft toys and Tigger Speaker too! Shop for a while then went to IKEA @ Tampines! Quene super long for buses! It's a bus waiting day! DUnno why kept on waiting for bus la. Since this morning when I go to sch, waited 25mins for 506! So was late for sch! But was proud of myself for wrapping Rinna's present on the bus! Haha... I think I'm good at wrapping. lolx. So after Quened super long for the bus and then even nd to quene to get into Ikea! Ha... but not bad la, manage to help Joy get her stuff and we also got the 'heart' soft toy. The place super big but really too crowded to shop! So planning to go tml again with Daphne in the morning. Oh, the most fun part of the day is when we took our neoprint at Century Square! We laugh like crazy after eating such a full meal at the Sushi place. It's a good way of entertaining urself when you go and take neoprint cos there's so much fun in posing, designing and changin position. Ha... No bad a day indeed.
Ps: Shuling almost got killed by a Big Guy who hold a super big umbrella as a weapon! Like wanna kill ppl like tt! Dunno wat the guy want la. Alighted the bus, got onboard again and scold *#&^#*% on the bus and alighted again! So super scary!!! What a day for SL! The funniest thing is tt Daphne said tt one of the guy on the bus looked like a Policeman! lolx! Save us!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
10:51:00 PM


Tuesday, November 28, 2006

-Where should I be in 2007?-


I am really confused! Was pondering where I should really go into nx year. It seemed to be a even more major task cos it seemed like time is running out. lolx. Cos after O's level, everyone will either be in Polytechnic or JC but after that wat? University? I also really. Of cos if I dun have to consider anything then surely I will choose to go for the degree course in Wheelock! It's only a 2years degree! Super fast to get a degree in 2 years la! I think seldom will ppl have tt chance ba. Time is not a factor here, money is! $13600 for tt! Where to get the money? ANyone out there want to sponsor mi? lolx. But if time and money become factors, then I really dunno. If I go for NIE, then money will not be a factor but time will be! Cos it'sa 5 years decision that I am making! As for SOT, it's just a matter of time cos I am determine to go for it. It's 4 months and $1500! But really nd to squeeze some time for tt. I really dunno... God, please make a way. SHow mi signal of where to go please! I want to do ur will and be in ur plan. So please guide mi!


Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
9:08:00 PM


-Delighted-

Wah...days passed! Finally hand in the Vietnam trip form le! Yeah! This means tt comfirm going le! Ha... really looking forward to tt! Today was lecture after lecture... Then got back quite a number of results! Was very pleased with all! Ha... Got A for the ASCES, B for AST & ASCES Quiz! Really delighted! Today, suppose to go for SWAT prayer meeting as mention in the earlier entry but I didnt GO! Anyway, got a number of things to do for all the projects like IEP, AMPYC and EOP. So gonna make good use fo the time I have. Oh... SUnday went to celebrate Jiayi's birthday with Jasline and Hui Qin. So long nv meet them le. Always looking forward to the gathering. Ha... Had a good chat with them at sakae sushi but was broke so only manage to eat 2 plate of sushi which was really pathetic! But still enjoy being with them and listening to all the story about everyone. Hee.. Another gathering coming up on the 10th of Dec which I am looking forward to and at the same time not. Cos tt girl will be there too which I know I would have anyhing to talk to her abt la. Good thing is tt Patuma and Jasline and Denise will be there. Ha... So long nv see everyone liao. Wll be a real gathering cos nv see each other for more than 3-5years le. Meeting al the seniors again. Ha... Really enjoyed all the times we shared! Oh... Then yesterday was busying rushing PED assignment. Thank God that I manage to finish the assignment on time. Hope that I will get a good grade for tt too!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
8:18:00 PM


Sunday, November 26, 2006

-PRAYER-

Wow...wat a great service I had today! It's Pst Phil's svc and he preach about prayer which I though that it was a subject which I needed badly. Learnt a lot during svc today and now it's up to mi to do something abt wat I learnt. Prayer change the world. Nothing is more powerful than prayer. Now I must really PRAY PRAY PRAY le. Oh ya... suppose to have SWAT de but then Pst got meeitng so in the end, we decided not to have SwaT. But... got PRAYER MEETING with pst on tue! God, no matter wat u must help mi! Today cg was alright but a bit down cos onli 10 ppl so the praise and worship also no very gd. Felt tt my cgl dun wan to borther with mi too much le. Mabe she finally see tt I am not those type tt like being control so she also nv say much. Cos I was expecting her to talk to mi or something but she didnt. So i guess everything will turn out fine. For example,oving in the gifts of the Spirit. I wan to move but if u force mi to then I wont wan to. Hmm... Wat a tee ke person I am. Ha... So after svc went back home with some of the SWAT members. Had a good time toking to them too! Learnt abt deliverances. There's this guy call David which Madeline intro last time. Then he went to SWAT too. Hmm... Can say tt He is quite a humorous guy ba.lolx. WHy am I talking abt him anyway? ha... Oh ya... I feel very happy and great being with the SWAT members. Now I can finally feel that CCH ppl are not those who onli care abt thier own ppl cos tt's the way I feel last time. But now I feel that they are all friendly and great ppl!Then on the way back, bought some drinks with Patuma( Saw Jo with winston too!) then we onli got $2. Short of 50cents but Thank God tt the uncle said nv mind take the drinks ba. Ha.... Praise God for favour! When we took a bus home, the bus ride over something and it created a big jake! SO scary! Like roller coaster like tt. Thank God tt we are sound and safe! Suddenly realise tt all my kids' parents all quite rich de. Earn $3000 monthly and a above. I serving the rich man! lolx. Tml need to give building fund! Still need to celebrate Jia Yi's birthday tml and Rinna and Dap's birthday on monday! God, I need financial miracles! I love You, God!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
12:07:00 AM


Friday, November 24, 2006

-Escape Finally-

Ha...so happy! Finally can went to Escape. Was super sad intially cos was rainning so in the end, all my friends and yuping said not going le since it's raining hen we cannot play all the rides. Hai* Then I just took a bus home after school lor. But half way through my journey home I realised that the sun was blazing! I was so happy and started to sms my friends and yuping. Finally they agreed to all go! Then it suddenly strike mi tt God is speaking to me. Cos when it rain, I was telling my friends that it's raining season ma so no choice. My friend was saying can pray for miracle ma. I think my faith level drip at t moment ba. God is like showing me that despite all, as long as I desire, God will be there to fulfil it no mater wat. He is the creator and of cos He can control the rain too! God is truly great and greatly to be praised! Had a fun time playing all the rides. PLayed twice the pirateship, the wet & wild, superman, planet ride, ferry wheel and the rainbow machine. Super trille and exciting. haha... all wet! But in the end didnt manage to get my ice cream! hai* nvm, can go there again nx time then I will redeem two icecream! lolx. Yum Yum! Then went to pasa mala at Dap's place. Ate some food and brough Rinna a top. I think she iwll like it ba. ha... Super tired today after everything. Use up too much energy le. Oh, then after everything, the starhub person was like calling mi and ask mi if I want to renew my Maxonline Contract and guess what? Got free Compact desktop! Ha... A blessing indeed. Planning to sell it off for building fund! Ha... ok super tired liao... wanna go slp.
Here are some of the pics taken:


Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:49:00 PM


Thursday, November 23, 2006

-Me and Me-

Wanted to post this up quite long ago but kept on forgetting to. I once heard this quote from the radio which I think the DJ quote it on someone's blog. I find it very meaningful and very real to mi I guess. I rephrase it this way:
Life is something complicated especially when it comes to relationship. I am not that kind of person tt want to disunite a gorup nor will I be tt kind of person tt will force myself to change just to unify a group. I dislike being told or ask on wat to do especially when it goes against my principle in life. I can be a very fexible person when it doesnt cause me to compromise my own conviction. I am no longer a little child that can be easily changed. I already have my own identity, my own thinking, my own way of life. Nevertheless, I loves God and surely I will do all I can to obey Him. Cos He is the only one who is worthy to change me, my life.
Ha... I added in my own thoughts I guess. When I was talking to Grace on tue it suddenly strick mi tt I am growing up to be like the adult, my mindset change and I am like those that cannot be control tightly if not I will retreat.
Anyway, I was just looking throught my organisor, then I realise that I have 4 projects parts to be done by nx week! Hai...really no time. How? I think I am really enjoying myself and at the same time, having lots to do ba. But I am really necgecting on my cg fellowship. I dunno why but it just seemed that I am always trying to be myself occupy with others thing. Becos I know tt if I dun do that I also cannot just say I want to go home and complete my work cos my cgl will surely disagree with tt. So now do you know why I dislikes...? Cos it seemed tt I no longer have a choice! God have given us choices and I have the right to choose rite? So now I rather go for svc than anything else.

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
10:04:00 PM


Wednesday, November 22, 2006

-Busy day-

Went whole day shopping with dap and sl to help look for dap's clothes. Ha.. was fun looking at al the clothes and seeing them trying. was tried tooo! Oh... we manage to watch Barbie and the 12 dancing princesses at Raffles City which is a place where I usually avoid becos someone is working there but was fun today cos of all my dear friends. The princesses danced so great! I love the part where Barbie dance with the prince la. So sweet and I love the music too. Ha.. I must go and look for the song! Ha... here's some pics of the 'musical?':

Wanted to shop for Dap and Rinna's bday present but dunno wat to buy so in the end nv buy. Wah... God, so many of my friends' bday! I wan to be a blessing to them on thier special day! Help mi to be one please? This sunday going to meet huiqin, jiayi and jasline to celebrate Yi's bday. I nv forgot thier birthday. Yeha... gonna meet Hui Qin le so long nv see her la but was nice of her to call mi and chat today. Ha... was shopping with the girls but still I dun care just continues to tok to Qin on the phone cos we seldom chats ever since graduated from sec sch la. Ha...Nx monday going to celebrate Dap and Rinna's bday. Tricked them into meeting for IEP projects on monday. Hopefully they realli have no ideas of what we are up to ba. Oh... this Friday going Escape with Yuping, sl, dap, and hopefully xinhui! So long nv see her liao...ha... wanted to buy something to encourage the O's ppl but well no time and money and I know it's just an excuse. Ha... Yeah! Can go play all the rides and shout out all my discontentment! Tis is like my second time going there and heard tt it onli cost $6! This whole wk like no time to go home for dinner. Always have dinner outside which mean spending more money. I really nd financial blessings! God! For project, everything start to kick off quite well. I really feel tt I am tt type of person tt if u gonna control tight and use hard on mi, I will just rebel la. So ppl out there, please read my cues and know my style of working. Please dun break mi! That's abt all now. Hope to see some changes? Hmm... just something tt is good and is from God tt I can bear ba. God, you are still a great God to mi! I love You!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:50:00 PM


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

-PM-

Haa!!! ESCAPE is the word man! lolx. God, the feeling of escaping from my cgl is getting stronger and stronger. Now I even feel tt she dun wan to bother abt mi anymore. She just sms mi abt cg, prayermeeting and stuff. No longer call mi or tok to mi after cg or svc le la. Or is it tt I'm too busy and always run off after everything?lolx. I realy dunno but it's just tt the feeling! God, I really tried to be good and respect her le but it's also at the brim le. I dunno how long I can continue on. I WANT TO GO FOR PRAYER MEETING! but somehow I just make things come in the way to prevent myself from going there becos I dun wan to have any extra contact with my cgl except for cgm and svc which I know it's absolutely not right! I'm like drifting further and further away from God. I know tt a lot of ppl around mi will feel tt I am a cheerful person, someone tt is a mature Christian, a sensible person? But I think I can’t really hear from God. God, can you please speak to mi? ok, something need to be done!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:49:00 PM


Monday, November 20, 2006

-Looking Forward to this Chirstmas?-

Last wk was a super busy wk cos was busy preparing for setting up of the library corner, going for Rocfish! Hai* sometimes I really feel tt my cgl dun understand and really dun care abt wat I am going through. She only look at how she can make mi help other cg members. I know I wan to grow, helping out in the cg of cos is one of the key but things are just not getting along well and I really dunno how to put myself in such a situation to help others. I wan to help the younger ones but still I dunno how and I know it's gonna cause a lot of time. I wish she could know my strengths, just focus on them and help mi to grow. But I doubt she's doing tt. She's just making mi feel more and more guilty day by day. God, help mi! I am suffocating again! Can u imagine it tt I actually dreamt abt telling lixia abt all my problems and crying in my dream? The feeling is like so real and I can still relate to it la. Then I also dream abt my project work la. haiyo... I really wonder how am I going to go through this year appreciation cgm. Dunno who and wat to appreciate for! I already somehow have the plan for what to do for all my dear friends this Christmas. Pardon mi if I didn’t really spend much cos I am really quite tight recently. But I wan a lot of things for Christmas. Someone can just get mi some new clothes, dress, shoes (nice one at OG), bags, vouchers! Looking forward for our early steamboat Christmas celebration at Sl's house! Gonna be R&R man! ha... finally can rest and relax for a bit liao. Going to spend the day going to get ingredients, cooking and going for a spa! ha...What a relax day it wil be! Being with the favorite gp of ppl and having all the fun!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:07:00 PM


Sunday, November 19, 2006

-A secret of mine-

Hai* Like wat SL said maybe becos recently too stress up with all projects that our patience towards anyone became lesser and lesser. Nowadays, really like every little things can burn down the whole forest. lolx. Easily agitated by the slighted things. Quarrel here quarrel there. My mum is really not a normal mother. Sometimes I wish that I can have a normal mother. She is the type of mum that will not know anything about her child. WHy? Because of the mental sickness that she had last time when I was just 7 or 8 yrs old. I still can remember that she will hit us everyday even thought my brother and I nv do anything wrong. Then if we dun agree or talk back abt small little things, she will threaten to jump! You think this will not have any effects on me? I can still remember everything we will make sure tt the door are locked, standing against the door to prevent my mum from opening it. All these happened and I really cannot remember how long all this took place. After tt my mum was admited to a hospital which until now I still dunno wat's the name of it. I nv asked since it will sort of tigger the bad memorises. My dad will bring us to see her once a week and we will staying with my uncle's house. Of cos, my aunt always prefer my brother and I always think tt why is everyone in the family which include all the external family, loves him more than mi? It make mi wonder why am I on this earth. Then when it's time for my mum to return home, everything become strange and unfamiliar. I really wonder how I can survive through. Maybe there are still issues tt are not answered. From then on, I knew tt my mum will nv be the same again. I just cant make her understand mi more or get advice from her or expect anything tt a daughter can expect from her mother. It's a regret? My family is indeed a messy one since my brother and I are children from my dad's second marriage No one know the actual reason why they got divorce and there's no close relationship between mi and my so-called stepsister.

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
8:58:00 AM


Friday, November 10, 2006

-Oh my!-

My Assignment schedule:
November
EOP test (9/11)
ASECS quiz (10/11)
AST decoding test 20% (21/11 or 24/11)
ASECS Sculpture 30% (24/11)
PED Assignment (28/11) 20% Individual
December
LECS Quiz 30% (6/12)
Oral Presentation 25% (6/12 or 7/12)
AST Test 30% Transcription (12/12)
AMPYC Assignment 40% (14/12)
January
LECS Assignment 50% (10/1)
AMPYC assignment 30% (11/1)
AST Mini speech 40% (19/1)
PED assignment 60% (23/1)
ASECS assignment (23/1)
EOP resume and cover letter due 40% (25/1)
PED quiz 15% (30/1)
LECS assignment due 10% (31/1)
IEP 100% (Throughout the whole semester)
Haha... I cant believes this too! Copied this from one of my classmate's blog! Can you believe it? After this semester I will feel very proud of myself for being able to complete these much in such a short period of time! lolx. Last semester liao...I just hope tt we can all enjoy it to the fullest. Even in the mist of all these projects, friendship grew too! From beginning stage to maturity stage. Now we can all talk it out when we dun feel good abt one another. Will surely miss the time we spend doing all these projects when this poly life end. It just seemed like I was just a year one student in NP. But now I am not, I'm year 3 le. Wow...time really flys! Anyway, we will all meet again if we all continue in this teaching field. hee... :)

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
5:16:00 PM


Thursday, November 09, 2006

-Frustrated?-

Dunno why but was extremely distrubed by my friends. Was busy doing all the projects stuff and dunno why but somehow feelings just welled up. So just got pissed off when Jia Hui keep tellig mi to start doing the literature review. I really dunno how to get started and dunno how to do. Hai* then still keep on asking mi to do. I will rather do the felt panel board lor... At least tt one is easier and we also helped them to do that yesterday ma. Hai* But in the end, hui and sl started the literature review for us somehow... cos they took out the example and stuff ba. Or maybe I am just not tt good with literature. lolx. Irritating!!! Anyway, manage to tok to Daphne and in the end to sl as well abt my feelings. Maybe they just overlooked it and though tt I was like tt becos I am stress but seriously I dunno if I am stress or not la. During the trip home, I somehow realised tt times really flew...It's the fourth ek of semester le... Ever since school started, it seemed like evrything is progressing so fast, everyday came back form sch super tired and somehow cant accomplish much...then comes the wkend where I will spend mi time in church and cg. Then tt's another wk! God, help mi and give mi the strenght to grow!!! Somehow got tired of LIFE le.

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
7:13:00 PM


Sunday, November 05, 2006

-Changes are constant-

After thinking for a while, I just guess not all people are the same and u cant expect them to always be the person u expect them to be. haha... I am not going to give up on God and the church. It's just tt at times, people do disappoint and did things tt irritated u. OK...enough of tt. I took bushome ALONE again after going for ernest's birthday party. It's the same of type of feeling again! Seeing people gotten married and having children are so amazing. Ha... Do I sound as if I'm very old? But I'm not... I'm 19! But still I wish to at least get attached. lolx. Anyway, I thought abt going for the vietnam trip, then to SOT, then to NIE. I pray tt all of them dun crashed together so tt I can fulfilled them all!!! It's Arise & Build and this time I really feel the pain. Sowing in Tears and I shall reap in Joy! lolx. There seemed so much to do and I feel that I dun have enough to spend. It's really challeging and I pray tt God will indeed open up heaven and Blessing will be on thier way. I nd them!!! I wanna give tuitions! God, give mi good connection with good students tt want tuition with good paid! Went to J8 today, when we went to the Fairprice, it's Christmas Corol all the way! I love Christmas. It's the time where I felt the love and happiness! A time of rejiocing. As times passes, I realised tt every Christmas, there's bound to be different ppl tt you are celebrating with and there are always more friends to give gift and cards to. I just love Christmas. Realizing tt the year is coming to an end, I didnt relly fulfilled much this year due to all the changes. I am just adjusting to all changes. SO 2006 is ending, how should I concluded it? Hmm... A year of changes? I just pray tt 2007 will be a greater year and tt I will fulfill all tt I have planned. As one grow up, there are bound to be more and more changes each year. I am just adjusting! God, help mi not to only focus on adjusting but also exceling!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
10:03:00 PM


Friday, November 03, 2006

-W.H.Y = why?-

Again it happen. I really cannot stand it when everything is sort of controlled. I dun wan to be in control by other ppl. I am who I am and I just wanna make my own decision. Can someone just dun onli think abt others but also consider me in the situation? I know it's bad tt I didnt attend but I'm super caught up with ALL PROJECTS together with wanting the truth! I didnt mean to not attend but I just nd some relaxation. Shopping and just chatting with the girls are really ways to pump mi up. I dun wan to attend the birthday just for the sake of going and not enjoying myself there. It's suppose to be an INVITATION not a COMPLUSORY thing. Of cos I will try to do something to wish him happy birthday but still... It's a personal thing ma. Why make it sounds like you're super displease leh? Hai* Ok...let's just forget abt it. If not it will just makes mi feel more irritated and compare. Projects are driving me crazy and super tired but thank God tt today at least manage to get evrything sort of settle, have an overview ideas of it. But we still havent got the truths. Then chatted with my cousin over the phone and realise tt we dun really tok so long on phone cos we normally meet up and tok de. lolx. Then finally decided to go for service on sat instead of sunday le. Cos at first I told my cousin tt whole family going for my nephew ernest's birthday de then end up dunno why my parents not going. I tried to find out why and persuade them to go but still...they dun wan to tell mi the reason. I just pray tt its not someting serious. Anyway, so I decided to go on behalf of them la. cos they expect us to be there le so must give face ma. Furthermore, I also loves family gathering cos seldom will have the time to plan and gather together so why not just go and sort of meet up. It's gd. So I'm kind of looking forward to it. So i'm going for svc on sat and It's ARISE & BUILD! I still thinking of the amount and I shall not reveal it here. lolx. God, I know tt you will provide seeds to the sower! I believe in You! haha... So going to be a busy day tml cos after svc still must go for SWAT. Oh... I realise I havent do my hw for pst!!! Hmmm... I shall do it tml hopefully. Ok so a busy day ahead. God, I pray for Your strenght to carry me through this season!

Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:42:00 PM


Thursday, November 02, 2006

-My Whole Life-

I'm confused! Where should I go? God, help mi. After attending the NIE talk, I 'm even more confused? Ok... it's very attractive going into NIE with all the allowance and fees all fully piad but with 3 yrs bond. Hmmm...
What I wanna achieve in this life time:

Hmmm... Gonna take a long long time to complete all these. But I really dun mind working and part time studying cos I feel tt we must always constantly upgrading ourselves and wider our job scope. lolx. In between all these, of cos I will work in Primary sch, Childcare Centre/ Kindergarten and finally open my own Childcare Centre and lastly to use it to fund my Orphange in a third world country to spread the LOVE of God! Hmm... sounds GREAT but there's lots to be done. haha... Anyone cares to join mi? There's sort of my vision ba. As for now? I will just Jia you jia you & jia you for all my projects in this final semester liao! God, I pray tt all these ar all according to ur plans for mi. I'm willing to change or adjust if it's not, so come and direct my paths! :)


Keep Your DREAMS alive!!
11:59:00 PM